Thursday, November 19, 2009

Doing what is right for me vs. what is right for US

Maybe it isn't the best name for this post, but something has to give.

I am going back to work in December because well, I just can't stay at home with the crappy benefits I am getting. I am also excited though, because it will get me out of the house for some me time!

On the other side of things, I feel so GUILTY going back to work early. I had to do the same with Sydney, because I didn't qualify for benefits. And I don't remember alot of her between three months and a year, because I worked so much. Even though I stay home during the day with them, we are always so busy!

Then there is Weight Watchers. In 2005 when we first started our journey, it was so much easier. I tried to do the online Weight Watchers, and it didn't work. You have to be accountable to someone other than yourself. So I took the very last of my birthday money and went back to meetings on Monday. My starting weight is horrible, and it's exactly 20 pounds heavier than I was when I went back after Sydney was born. But so far this week, it has been great. Even with having to go to a work event on Tuesday evening.

So in the grand scheme of things I look at it like this:

  1. Going back to work early, although not ideal, will help to provide for our family
  2. Spending some little extra on the Weight Watchers meetings instead of online will help with my health and well being in the long run. Which means I will be around longer to be with my kids.

Does any of that make any sense lol? Who knows. Sometimes you just have to say it out loud!