This I Know For Sure

That regardless of what happens, I am already the person I want to be!

Wish me luck everyone!

One Week

All my ducks are in a row so to speak. Just waiting now for the big day to come.

I had my pre op appointment at the hospital and it went well. Just all the pre stuff and the flow of the operation. It is apparently going to be a painful month and a half after. But the pain isn't really what I am scared of.

Besides that, my world is just fine! I may not get the chance to write on your blogs often but I read them every update. Take care my bloggy friends ;)

Ummmm....So........Hmmmmm

BOOBS BREASTS KNOCKERS

Ok now that I got that out of the way:

On February 10th I am having a Breast Reduction Surgery. To any and all people that are not into knowing the details, TURN AWAY NOW!

I was basically born with breasts. I'm not kidding. I had my first "training bra" when I was 8 years old. Yes 8. By the time I was ten, if memory serves, I was wearing a 34B.

I am so not kidding.

During high school, I was a 36C, which on my 5'5 135 pound frame looked huge. But I was in high school. I LOVED the attention. Sure, my back hurt ALL THE TIME. Sure I was subconscious and hated buying new clothes. But I dealt with it.

When I put on weight, well you can guess what happened. At my heaviest I was a 44DDD which seems small now. But I was heavy and really didn't notice them since there was weight everywhere.

Before I began having kids, and at my smallest since high school, I became a 40D, which also seems small now. Then I had baby #1. Shortly baby#2 followed. Then baby #3. I am now a 46F. The last straw came this fall, when I was trying to get back into running. I can barely breathe while I run. There is so much WEIGHT on my chest. It is so hard to explain. Forget about the back pain, knee pain and sciatic pain. And the HEADACHES. Literally. It was agony.

So after speaking to my family, my doctor and myself, I decided it was time. Time to change my life for the better.

So that is my news. My big change coming. I hope that it gets me on the path to a better self. Both inside and out.

January Blues

Hello Everyone!

I was down FIVE POUNDS last week! I wish I could say that means I lost 15 pounds overall, but really all it means is that I am back to where I was before Christmas LOL!

Well, is it February yet? Since New Years Day, things just have been so stressful around here. I think that January is like that for a lot of people. Which is why they go away! It seems at every corner there is something else weighing on me, us, our family. Stress is a real trigger of emotional eating for me.

Yesterday was probably the icing on the proverbial cake. Our porcelain stove top CRACKED right down the middle.

FML

I mean really? REALLY?

Work is extremely busy which is good for me, so I have been working a lot too! When February comes I will be off for a few weeks for a surgery. I will talk a bit about that next time though.

In the meantime, I am reading all you blogs and thanks if you've left a comment. It means a lot that people out there are listening.

OH! I totally forgot. So, if you recall, my Garmin busted. So not cool. I sent it back to Garmin's electronics division and apparently the whole unit needed to be replaced. So, I got a brand new Garmin. Score!

Have a great day everyone!

Ugh

So this past week has not been a pleasant one AT ALL.

Firstly, I did not go to WI this week. I will be going back next week, but I knew I was up and I totally didn't want to pay 17 bucks to know it. I have a free pass to miss a week, so I will use it then.

Moving on from my up, I am having a better week this week. There is hardly a drop of wine or junk in the house, so that is making things a little easier. Tonight I am heading out with the hubby to run hills with his 1/2 marathon group. We'll see how that goes!

I also had a bit of an incident here on the weekend involving a serrated knife. Long story short, always use a cutting board. Managed to cut myself pretty badly and required a tetanus shot. Emergency on a Saturday night =not so much fun!

I am also going to another Yoga class this Friday night. Hopefully it will be as good as the first one!

This is a 1st

I was down .2 pounds at WI last night. It is the first time in history I lost weight during Christmas!

Tonight I am off to work. Tomorrow I might try to get to the gym to do a class. We'll see. New Years is going to be quiet.

Nothing new to report. Everyone BUT me is sick with a cold. Not too pleasant. When I am the only one that isn't sick, you know it's serious lol!

Enjoy the rest of your week everyone! Be safe!

So no to Bodypump

But yes to Body Step!

With the help of these little babies I have begun taking classes at Goodlife here in Aurora!

Last night I decided to go to the 5:45 class and see how I liked BodyStep:

Bodystep is the energizing step workout that makes you feel liberated and alive. Using a height-adjusted step and simple movements on, over and around the step, you get huge motivation from sing-along music and approachable instructors. Cardio tracks push fat-burning systems into high gear followed by muscle conditioning tracks that shape and tone your body!

It was so much fun. And challenging. But with some modifications and looking like a real "winner" I got through the ONE HOUR class. At the 15 minute mark I remember thinking I should just leave. But I purposely put myself at the front, so I couldn't sneak out if it became hard! I felt so good when I was done!

Tonight I have decided to take a Bodyflow (yoga) class. I hope I enjoy it just as much!

(I do plan on trying a Bodypump class, but it will have to wait until the new schedule comes out in January!)

So Many Specialists

So little time!



So in my 30th year, I am seeing more specialists than I ever have in my entire life.



I have a MRI in January for my migraines, and seeing a neurologist. I am seeing a dermatologist and a plastic surgeon to remove some....I hate this word....moles lol! I got ANOTHER xray scheduled to my foot, just to make sure that I didn't break it.



But I discovered something interesting today while at the doctor. Apparently, with my mobility, they are 100% sure that it is all caused from my sciatic nerve. Did you know that is runs all the way down from your back to your foot! So, my foot is bothering me all because of my sciatic nerve! Its awesome! Well not really, but it means I go to physio! YAY!

I just don't want my foot to hurt like this forever. Some days it is unbearable.

And am I crazy to go to a Les Mills Bodypump class tonight? I am so excited!

Down but Not Out

I was down another pound at WI on Monday night! YAY!

So that is 10.6 total since returning to meetings. I am very pleased. I don't think I have EVER lost weight over Christmas before.

On Monday we talked about Perseverance. What it means and how we use it to be successful in our journey.

One of the tools they tell us to use is to Anchor. So to take something and to use it as an "Anchor" to successful weight loss while we are losing weight.

We are all going to slip up and make bad choices once in a while. But you need to assess why it happened and make sure you know the signs, so the next time you will be prepared.

I talked about how right now being patient is helping me. My first time on this journey, I had lost about 25 pounds at this point! I know, it seems unreal, but it's true. I had two double digit weeks and lost on the high side the other weeks. My week one weight loss was 10 pounds lol!

But time and kids have changed my metabolism. So it is slower this time. And I am ok with that. I want this to be successful. I want to succeed!

Monday

I am always at a constant battle with myself when it comes to WI Monday. I have my pluses and my negatives.

For one, it keeps me on track during the weekends. Weekends in our life are insane. Constantly going and coming. And now I am working again which brings it's own share of challenges (Starbucks and South Street Burger Company are RIGHT outside the back door). So having the Monday WI stops me dead in my tracks when it comes to any temptations that are put in front of me.

The negatives though........they seem huge.

Weight Watchers needs to be seen as a lifestyle change. Not a diet. The second you start telling yourself that you "can't" have this or "shouldn't" eat that, you are setting yourself up for failure. Before you know it that one cookie you shouldn't have eaten turns into the bag. Or, in my case, not enjoying my weekends with my family because I am so overly concerned with what I am or am not eating is making me miserable.

I didn't put this weight on in a month, it isn't going to come off in a month either.

But by Sunday night, I am so wound tight and dreading WI the next day, I feel horrible.

I am going to stick with Monday WI for the time being. But it has given me something to think about, that's for sure!

Happy Holidays

First let me apologize for my absence again! I have been busy:

Chocolate Blossoms, Shortbread, Snickerdoodles, Coconut Swirl Brownies, Toblerone Fudge, Rocky Road Fudge and Candy Bar Bars.

Yes, those are BAGELS!

I am afraid that this is just a TOUCH of what I have been up to this week. The kids have helped and we are almost finished. Just a few more goodies, including pies for Christmas Dinner.

I was down again this week. My total weight loss since going back to meetings is 9.6 pounds! WOW! I feel good. And for anyone who is curious, I didn't touch hardly anything. And if I did, I counted it! If you follow the recipes and make sure you make the correct amount, each one is only worth two points. And for some of these, it is worth it. Like the SHORTBREAD. So good.

I also got my Garmin back, all fixed up. I was going to go out and run, but it was way too cold. It was one of those nights I wish we had a treadmill or elliptical. Hopefully it get a but warmer so I can get out a few more times before the New Year!

Something BIG on the Horizon

Wow wow wow.

A lot has been going on here in my little part of the world. It's always an exciting time around here.

I am heading back to work in December! My first shift is on December 6th. I am VERY excited. I will also be working on Boxing Day so extra money there!

My second week on WW has been interesting. I do not expect a loss nearly as good as last week, but that is to be expected.

In February, there is a big change a coming to me! No I am absolutely NOT PREGNANT again (and if you did the math, you'd know that was true). I may or may not post about it at all here, it is very personal, but it is a HUGE part of who I am now. So wait and see!

Week 1 WI

Down 5.4 YAY!

I want to lose 2 pounds this week! Wish me luck!

Nothing really new to report here. I am still waiting on my work schedule so I have no idea when I will be working next week. Hopefully I will know soon enough!

Have a great day everyone!

Doing what is right for me vs. what is right for US

Maybe it isn't the best name for this post, but something has to give.

I am going back to work in December because well, I just can't stay at home with the crappy benefits I am getting. I am also excited though, because it will get me out of the house for some me time!

On the other side of things, I feel so GUILTY going back to work early. I had to do the same with Sydney, because I didn't qualify for benefits. And I don't remember alot of her between three months and a year, because I worked so much. Even though I stay home during the day with them, we are always so busy!

Then there is Weight Watchers. In 2005 when we first started our journey, it was so much easier. I tried to do the online Weight Watchers, and it didn't work. You have to be accountable to someone other than yourself. So I took the very last of my birthday money and went back to meetings on Monday. My starting weight is horrible, and it's exactly 20 pounds heavier than I was when I went back after Sydney was born. But so far this week, it has been great. Even with having to go to a work event on Tuesday evening.

So in the grand scheme of things I look at it like this:

1. Going back to work early, although not ideal, will help to provide for our family
2. Spending some little extra on the Weight Watchers meetings instead of online will help with my health and well being in the long run. Which means I will be around longer to be with my kids.

Does any of that make any sense lol? Who knows. Sometimes you just have to say it out loud!

Not Much New To Report

We had a quiet week last week with the kids away at Grandma's. Which was probably a good thing because we were both so SICK!

So really running and almost all activity has taken a downward spin. Which I find odd since I was on such a roll. I will try to get back into things this week.

Some that know me IRL know how much I like photocards. Basically I take any info for a party/birth announcement/holidays and send them to Lindsay at Grace Announcements. We went to high school together and she is a Momtreprenuer, so I am always happy to send her my things and she send back some really amazing product. I entered into a contest on her website and WON! Which is awesome lol! So I will be able to choose any design from the 2009-2010 holiday collection and I will be getting 50 cards for free! How awesome is that?

YAY ME!

My very very bestie Marlene and hubby Colin threw me a "surprise" 30th birthday party this past weekend. And it was an amazing time. Dancing, singing, partying down, copious amounts of food and drink. And a good time was had by all. The people I love most in the world were there and it was incredible.

So thank you so much everyone! Here is to at least 30 more years lol!

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In other news, my two oldest are spending the week at their Grandma's place. So that means it is just me and the littlest dude. Which is a good thing because I am sick :(

Just a cold, but I am still feeling under the weather, so it will be nice to relax a little, and not have to chase little ones around the neighborhood. The weather is BEAUTIFUL so I may venture out for a walk later.

Garmin is still dead as dinner. I tried calling the Garmin technical support. I think I am going to have to "write a letter" lol. Nah, I am calling Customer Service this afternoon. Wish me luck!

My Poor Garmin

So last Wednesday while on the way to Run Club, the mode button on my Garmin 305 seemed to be empty i.e. there was nothing to push. But I did manage to get it working and went on my way.

Fast forward to Sunday. It didn't work. At all.

Le Sigh. I live and BREATH by this thing. Why oh why is it broken NOW.

I need a new Garmin if I can't get it working. I'll add it to "my list".

But you read that right, I ran on Wednesday, Sunday and again last night. Tonight I am going back to start 4 & 1'S! Wow. I never thought I would make it this far.

The Naughty List

I've been a bad girl.

So not only has my fitness been lacking in the past few weeks, but I have also been slipping up in the food department. Big time.

I have a list of things that I can never bring into the house. Ever. And they have been plentiful in the past few weeks.

1. Baked Goods, including brownies, cakes, fresh breads, bars, scones and biscuits. I can eat three tea biscuits without even flinching. If I see it there, I will eat it. Easy to grab.
2. Regular Soda. While I do drink Diet Coke, my preferred poison is actually good old Coca Cola. So good. And oh so bad.
3. Chocolate, of any kind. I mean, anything. Even those 100 calorie packs and bars are bad for you when you eat six at a time.
4. Kraft Dinner. It's basically the devil. I can eat one box no problem. In fact, I just did.

But there are things that I can keep in the house and it really doesn't bother me all that much.

1. Peanut Butter/Nutella. This is a real problem for a lot of people. But we have a 2 pound tub of PB in the cupboard that I don't even look at. While I do eat it, I have never really cared for it all that much. Same with Nutella I am afraid. Just doesn't float my boat.
2. Candy. You know things like jujubes, jelly beans, Sour Keys etc. Anything WITHOUT chocolate. I cannot stand the stuff.
3. Alcohol. Now don't get me wrong, I can get my drink on. And I have. But once I got my post pregnancy binging out of the way, I have had a bottle of my favorite wine on the wine rack that I haven't touched.

I need to get back on track. Once I go back to work in December, I am going to be seriously lacking in free time.

Sigh...................

Thursday Randomness

• Went for a run last night at the Running Room. Did six set of 2 & 1's and it was hard. Moving on to 3 & 1's on Friday!
• While I was there, I tried on the Resolution Run Jacket. So nice. So pretty. So signing up and getting one!
• Speaking of The Running Room, I will be going back to work in December now. First I was going to wait until March, then January. But it has become clear, I need to go back ASAP. I am actually really looking forward to it. Plus, you know, working makes you money!
• I cannot stop watching Twilight. I am obsessed with these films and books. Is there something wrong with me?
• I cannot believe it is the end of October. Where did 2009 go?
• I will be 30 on Sunday. Holla!

Have a great Thursday everyone!

Good News

NOT A STRESS FRACTURE!

Although they can't say for sure, I just bruised a bone. So I can resume running immediately. Since I want to do it right, I will be going to Run Club tomorrow night to resume the 2 & 1's properly with a clinic group. Then on Friday it is onto 3 & 1's. Gulp!

In other news, I have really been giving our Wii Fit a run for it's money. And I found the Wii Fit Plus I bought earlier in the summer, while I was pregnant and have been doing even better. I even turned my Wii Bank BRONZE. It means I have done 1o hours of exercise on the Wii Fit! Woohoo. I am determined to do at least 30 minutes a day! My only complaint is that with new Wii Plus, it is taking my weight in kilos instead of pounds. Which is a pain.

I hope everyone is having a fantastic week. Take care everyone!